I am tired of it all - from a prisoners partner

I am a prisoners partner and I have to agree with some of what Prison Widow says. My partner is serving his third prison sentence and I am left at home bringing up our baby single handed. I am tired and fed up of his criminal antics and this will be another Xmas without him. I love him but I am asking myself if he loved me and his baby as much as he says he does, why is he doing this to us? I am really tired of it all.